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Sunday, February 12, 2006

real

Oh the reality that sets in when you come from a party full of couples and/or people that seem happier than you are.

I hate being that guy that seems like he hates/judges everyone. My humor is such that people would think that, but at times, when people that have no idea who I am try to point out my short-comings, I kind of want to deck them. Let's face it... people are going to think that I'm negative and hateful, but I know it isn't true... It's just when people think they have me figured out. Not only is it annoying, but it's almost always 100% wrong.

I also should come to grips with my dating habits. Before, it's like I would show very little interest in someone I liked, and then over the last year and a half, I've been trying to make myself show interest more, and I think it's making me look desperate, or fast-moving. I don't want either of those, but I don't know what the balance is. I think I'm destined for being single through my mid-20's. I should really accept that as the reality, and hope that something comes through and breaks reality up into 3 concepts involving Vh1, Flava-Flav, Bridgitte Neilson and Jerry Hall.

For now bed. Alone. Could be worse, eh? *sigh* I say that a lot these days... Could it really, or am I just trying to kid myself?

Ah... there's the self-doubt... looks like it's back, guys! However, the creative inspired side isn't... I wonder if both can exist at the same time and keep the other in check. Are these questions that drug makers ask when they're testing new products for depression?

Bed. Now... wait, no... okay, NOW!

posted by grey as mike @ 2:24 AM

2 Comments:

At February 15, 2006 9:48 AM, Anonymous said…

Grey,
I think you are funny and love your sense of humor. Plus you're a good kisser, so the vast gang of boys out there are missing out...letting you sleep alone.

You rock.
X
At February 15, 2006 11:54 AM, grey as mike said…

Oh you crazy bloggers and your drugs.

Next time, share the Tina with me, alright?