| Wednesday, March 29, 2006 |
| crossroads |
I am at a crossroad
the past is the past
and distant in memory
yet so close to my heart
it pulls at the strings
making me vulnerable
and strong at the same time.
The future is a blurry mess
way ahead and far away
with lights that don't seem
to get any closer
and time standing still
no matter how long I chase
or how much progress I make.
What a huge crossroad I am at.
It doesn't seem to end
and the past is the past
and future is distant
so I'm stuck in the now.
some would call that limbo,
I guess they'd be right.
I know who I am and what I'm doing
I know where I came from
but I don't feel secure
and I'm lost in my own setting
as if amnesia has set in
and everyday tasks are familiar
but everything around me is strange.
It's a serene feeling, this
auto-pilot mentality.
I don't have to think about things
I just do them
Like a robot
designed with human parts
and purchased as a human experiment.
Another beer, please, bartender...
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So, this morning I was working out, and I got a bloody nose. But it wasn't really bloody - it had some blood in it, but it was as if water just fell out of my nose. VERY disgusting, and confusing - that has never happened before. I know it's dry in my apartment, but... that's weird. A call to the doctor might be in order.
I feel weird today. Everything is up in the air, and everything is kinda insane, and I'm not sure where to fit myself into all of this. I just need one thing to be normal right now, and then I'd be okay... I need a ROCK, damnit!
So I didn't feel good yesterday, so I drove to class - $6 for parking. Not too bad, it's tempting to do it again, but I have to be constrained... $6 a pop can add up FAST! It's also cash only, so... that would deplete my on-hand resources pretty fast.
Nothing much else to report. I suppose I'll be talking with you all later... |
posted by grey as mike @ 10:05 PM  |
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I like the poetry. "Under" rocks! And so do you!
Maybe you need this swirling confusion? Maybe not.
Keep blogging...how are the school projects going?
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I like the poetry. "Under" rocks! And so do you!
Maybe you need this swirling confusion? Maybe not.
Keep blogging...how are the school projects going?