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Sunday, October 29, 2006

baby

I know I was trying to keep this to music and music likings, which I will try to do later in this post. For now:

I really have nothing when it comes to music at the moment, so... yea. That's all.

xoxo

posted by grey as mike @ 7:32 PM 2 comments

Monday, October 23, 2006

autumn

thanks for the comments, guys - they haven't gone unnoticed.

While weeding through the usual mail from individuals such as "Dick Fair" and "Trina Grove" this morning, I am reminded of 2 songs I wrote this weekend. Neither of which I recorded, and one of which I think I've completely forgotten how to play. Shameful, really. I need my house to be clean before I can sit and start recording shit.

I drove this weekend to Ikea for a desk top (I still kept the steel pipe base that I made, just needed a new topper). It was nice. There's something very romantic about drinking chai and driving through treelined streets full of leaves... There's still enough leaves on the trees so that it's not like - sticks and dead leaves on the ground. The leaves on the ground are still yellow and orange, and there's still some green on the trees - it's SO nice. I'm quite inspired. I'll try to get some guitar demos up this weekend. I've said this before, but I think it's time...

As for my blogging last week - The whole point of that blog was to say that I want to get this thing back to music. As time has gone, it became more about me and less about what I originally intended the blog to be. With that, since this post is about music stuff, I don't feel bad posting it. Notice I didn't go over what happened since the last post, or what I did this weekend...

I want you all to listen to these albums:

Pinback - Summer In Abbadon
The National - Alligator
The Appleseed Cast - Low Level Owl Vol. 1 and Vol. 2
Kevin Devine - Put Your Ghost To Rest

Right now, those have inspired me to write music and get off my ass and hone in on this shit. I hope you do the same.

xoxo

posted by grey as mike @ 9:25 AM 2 comments

Monday, October 16, 2006

blog

The longer this blog is up, the more I feel like it's become a parody of its original intent.

My lack of money to go into a studio and record songs that I really like, but then start to hate the longer I sit on them has caused me to bitch about my daily goings on, instead of my music aspirations. Reading through some of these posts, I simply just feel like a bitch and kind of a loser.

I wanted this to be a forum for me to express ideas that I could incorporate into my music, and also as a forum to post demos and things of that nature. I've failed in both of those categories.

Now I feel like I've isolated my ones of readers and have stopped getting responses and comments. I'm also getting less hits as time goes on. Needless, blogging will probably be kept to a minimum until I get some work done.

Yes, I have said this before. Yes, I do indeed keep blogging after I say things like this. Perhaps I'll want to post poetry and demos again at some point very soon. Right now, however, I just don't see it happening...

Anyway - I'll keep an eye up on the blog for comments or requests, but overall - it's gonna be chill for a while.

xoxo

posted by grey as mike @ 12:47 PM 3 comments

Monday, October 09, 2006

columbus

It's Columbus Day, everyone. Ain't that something else? I'm working... Oh yea, fuck that forever...

Okay, now that we have that out of the way... I have been obsessively listening to the Appleseed Cast. I'm pretty sure that Brian no longer reads my blog, but thank you to him for giving me almost all of their CD's.

As for my weekend, I stayed in on Friday night after my emergency room visit and shoulder issues. Saturday I got REALLY drunk at my friend Tim's house, then went to the bars, where I continued to get messed up. Hangover Sunday morning, which I mostly slept through, then went and did some shopping and misc. Sunday stuff. Met up with Mark from London later - he's back in town for a couple weeks. Had a nice dinner. Good times...

My shoulder is feeling a lot better at the moment. I should be back to working out next week. THANK GOD!!! I need to get back into it ASAP. I want to gain like 10lbs by years end, and then 5-10 more lbs after that. It's really the only thing that keeps me sane at the moment.

School - I have a few projects going at once here. 1) drawing a perspective of typewriter keys, 2) designing an identity and corporate materials for a mass transit system called "the point" and a spa for men called "m squared," 3) designing my own typeface and creating an album cover for an Appleseed Cast album (I didn't decide this, he came to look at our iPod's to see what we were listening to, and that's what I was assigned).

Work - IBM keeps me busy during the day, but Minibar has a few things in store for me - I can use some of it as schoolwork, too. For Winebar's opening, I'm doing an ad, helping with a monogrammed plate and cup system, designing a menu and working on something for indoor/outdoor signage. Good times, but busy times.

If you want to hang out, scheduling in advance AND REMINDERS to that will be needed.

In addition to this, City On Film and Hanalei play next Tuesday at Schuba's for $7, Kevin Devine plays with Matt Pond PA at Beat Kitchen Nov. 11 for $12, Appleseed Cast plays with Owen at Metro on Nov. 12 for $14, and Oh My God plays Subterranean Nov. 18 for $10.

If anyone wants to go to any of these shows, please let me know - I kind of want to go to them all. :-).

I guess that is all. Leave comments - lemme know that y'all are out there and readin the blog...

xoxo

posted by grey as mike @ 2:50 PM 0 comments

Friday, October 06, 2006

shoulder

Due to a couple days of severe pain in my left shoulder, I contacted my doctor who told me to go to the ER. In what will probably cost me seven million dollars, I was told that I have tendinitis (yes, that IS the correct spelling) in it, and was given a prescription, along with advice to use ice (hey, that rhymed, and yet I don't care) and anti-inflammotory OTC shit... AWESOME!

No working out for a week. *sigh* just when I thought I was seeing results. BAM!

I was reminiscing with Becky the other day, cause there's a virus that's hitting all the pumpkins, and causing an uproar in my pumpkin pie making plans for Thanksgiving.

I remembered that while I was in Kindergarten at Jamie McGee grade school in Bolingbrook, some kid brought in one of those little pumpkins with a really long stem. He said something about it being unbreakable, so when i got it, i tugged at the stem and it broke. The teacher banned me from show and tell sharing at that point.

WHAT A CUNT!!!

I should find that bitch and punch her in the BOX! There was another time when we had to do art, and she said 4 to a table, and everyone got a table but me, and she wouldn't stop yelling at me for not being at my table, when they were actually all full.

See what a pumpkin virus does to me?

I hate that bitch now... and I had forgotten about her up until now. *sigh*

So no gym, no drums for me for a week. That sucks. a lot.

Guess I'll get back to what I was doing before... nothing.

xoxo

posted by grey as mike @ 1:25 PM 1 comments

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

quick

quickie this morning - and no, not that kind (although I do wish...)

I seriously hate the fact that this congressman comes out as gay WHILE in rehab, and then it's because he was molested, and therefore molested these teenagers. Stupid... We all know how I feel about republican gays in the first place, but to then perpetuate an unneeded, unwanted and untrue stereotype... It really just sucks that I feel like there's going to be a falling out over this toward the gay community, and not the person who is at fault for it.

In other news, I hate school. It's not really news, but since the major networks repeat the same shit every hour, I figure I can as well.

My finger is still fucked up for drawing, and I have no photos or ideas for this photocomm assignment due TONIGHT. Not happy.

I'm still down for the 5 reasons below, underneath the 'lost' post. Stupid. I have gotten into The Appleseed Cast a bit the past week or so, but I'm just about at my threshold before I'm sick of them forever. Again... Stupid.

Blah... I guess I'll get working on that stupid photo project. Later!

xoxo

posted by grey as mike @ 9:31 AM 0 comments

Monday, October 02, 2006

recap

here's the lost post I did a couple weeks ago... thursday, Sept. 21 to be exact, at about 6pm:

Fall = gorgeous - and I would like to take this time to A) say hello to Jeremy, who is sitting next to me and might read what I'm writing here - one can never tell, and B) ummm... well, uhhh... nothing.

Fine, I got nothing. I'm bored before class with nothing to do, and all I want to do is keep my brain going... otherwise, I'll fall asleep and it will suck.

My photo comm. class sucks - we have to use this stupid pinhole camera AGAIN to take more series photos. I'm so sick of this assignment, that if anyone ever says pinhole again, I may go on a murderous tirade before killing myself (and maybe 6 or 7 more people that I didn't catch on the murderous tirade).

Applied drawing - the teacher actually looked at a girl and called her a titless wonder. I don't think he was talking about HER in particular, cause he was making a point about the real world - or talking about how we'll all be exploited and used either for some 'ass and tits' or whatever... I couldn't believe how funny I found it. I couldn't stop laughing, and everyone else was horrified. What does that say about me, and do I really care? Hmmm...

I'm hungry right now, even though I just had a sandwich, salad and apple. Working out makes me want to eat and eat and eat, and never stop eating ever. As my trainer put it, I should increase my 'caloric intake,' specifically protien. It doesn't help that the vending machines here at school promote nothing but fat and stupid. Did I mention stupid? I did? Good...

Sprite Zero is not as good as Sierra Mist Free... They're similar, but... not the same. I am just glad that a diet option WITH NO CAFFIENE is available to me outside of my house. I am still drinking Chai in the morning, but that gives me a good pep and is good for my metabolism.

Anyway, I suppose I can't be too stupid this evening... Even though it's going to be GORGEOUS - *sigh* why can't I ever date in the fall and do fall things outside with someone? It's always in spring when it's still too cold, or summer when it's all too hot.

I'm outta here...

xoxo

posted by grey as mike @ 1:57 PM 1 comments

dance

Forgive me for the... ummm, frankness of the following post - I'm in a talkin mood about my ponderings and shit - so deal!

1) I don't dance. I have said it before, and I will say it again - I was born to ROCK! Not dance... This only works to my detriment, since I seem to be the only male on earth that doesn't like to zone out to mindless drum and bass until the wee hours of the morning, and go home with whatever's still left at the bar afterward. Most of whom I have dated seem to find my replacement at such places when I let them loose for the night... So what do I do? Suck it up and go out dancing (and thus feel like a fool in the process)? Wait for someone that can deal without dancing all the time? Can I actually trust anyone that goes dancing often at this point? Stupid...

2) School sucks. I am NOT in a school frame of mind right now - I can barely afford it, and I don't even want to be there anymore. It's a necessary evil, and I just need to get through it, but I can't seem to shake this unmotivated feeling - it's like, I'm on auto-just-get-by-pilot. I barely clean up after myself at home (neither does chris, so I guess it's a good match so far, but I think it's because I'm not cleaning so he doesn't care to either). My room looks the same as it did when I just threw all the shit from my old room all over the floor. I have shit in the foyer that's been there for weeks, and I just can't seem to clean it. Sure, I do my laundry and take showers and eat, but my place is a slovenly hellhole that a year ago, would NOT be acceptable for living by my standards.

3) The gym is really my only savior at the moment. For the last 35 days, I have gone everyday - 6 different types of crunches, 4-7 lifting exercises for specific body parts, 10-20min of cardio. I've lost weight doing this, but I've also gained muscle... Right now, I'm about evened out, so I still have almost 20lbs to gain until I'm at my goal... 20lbs is almost 13% of my total body weight right now. That's a weird number to me... I guess nothing comes easy, as that is probably all my 20's have offered me - lessons that nothing comes easy, and working hard typically just breaks you even. *sigh*

4) Fall is my favorite season, and yet I have no one to enjoy it with. Low 60's is the best weather I could ask for - it's the only time of the year that I want to be outdoors and social... But all my friends are busy or dating someone, and I typically end up in front of the TV - watching my shows on Tivo - eating out of the tub of cottage cheese - drinking a Malibu and Sprite (Sprite ZERO these days) and waiting until I fall asleep for the night. This is the first fall I've had absolutely no dating prospects or anything...

I have to say, I miss B. I miss Brad, I miss Brian L., I miss Jerry... and what sucks is that they don't miss me back. Ain't that a bitch...

5) I don't seem to have any luck lately. I smashed my finger at the gym last week, shortly before the L broke down 4 times in the 1hr window that I was on the train. I bought some songs on iTunes that were 2 seconds off in the track split, which started an email war with iTunes support over the weekend. My friend Karl's friend Paul is dying... It just seems that bad luck is following me around. Kinda sucks...

I think that I'm just frustrated that things seem to be more up against me now than they've been in a REALLY long time. How long can I stay upbeat and look on the bright side? Even my horoscope said I should be introspective and figure out why my choices are wrong... not that I subscribe to that, but it's an odd thing. Most people think I don't look on the bright side. Am I just the one that they all look at and say "well, at least I'm not as fucked up as he is..." If I were to just shut up and agree with everything they say, would they just find the next guy that uses sarcasm and blame him for being the bitch in the group?

They actually have fights and leave restaurants in anger and all this, but I say that I hate dancing or forget a "thank you" and I'm the asshole that needs meds? Stupid...

Now that I've gotten all of THAT off of my chest...

My weekend was actually not that bad. Friday I went out with my friend Karl. I didn't see anyone, until David showed up, but that was right before we were leaving. Kind of sucks, I haven't had time to hang out with him since he got back from California, but whatever - in due time, it will happen. It was nice to see Karl have a good time, and I also met a few of the people that I Yachted with a couple months back, who I haven't seen since the yachting took place. They're fun people. Never a dull moment. One of them is since engaged, and that's awesome.

Saturday, I went to Karl's to teach him the VERY BASIC knowledge I have of flash. He has the books, but just needed someone to show him how to get started. I gave him the source files for my websites so he could play around and reference them if he needs to. Flash isn't hard to use once you get into it, but can get very complex very quickly. Needless...

I then met up with Bruno, Brent and Jason (Bruno's friend from Britain). Things were going swell, until Brent chipped part of a statue that Bruno got from Mexico. Throughout the night, they would have a small argument about it, until Brent got up to leave... Bruno and him talked outside while I talked with Jason - taking up a table for 4 on a busy night at Ping Pong - not cool. They got their shit together, and then we had a nice meal.

Amanda, Dan (her beau), Wilson (his friend) and Lisa (Wilson's wife) were there, and invited us to join them at LBC (Lakeview Broadcasting Company) that night. After they left, Bruno was appalled that we would think of going to a straight bar, so they went to Minibar, and I went to meet my friends. Wilson and Lisa are ridiculously social - they can approach and talk to anyone, so it was nice to talk with Wilson about music and such... he's a cool guy. Invited me to the studio - said that Dan isn't there a lot, but Wilson is there all the time. We'll see how that develops.

Yesterday, I hung out most of the day, and lounged, and I needed to lounge, to be honest. Went shopping for food, and watched my "stories" WHICH were all reruns, btw. Stupid.

Today I got up, and felt the need to express my current woes, and that's about where I'm at... So, all in all, life could be worse... But it could also be much better. Ah well... C'est La Vie!

xoxo

posted by grey as mike @ 9:34 AM 0 comments

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