| Friday, April 28, 2006 |
| unleash |
I shall take this time to unleash my fury up on that which I hate the most:
idiots.
This morning I am on a bus. The bus (as usual) is packed to its very brink, and the bus is ALSO (not as usual, but not surprising) broken at its back door, thus lacking the second exit. Since the bus is jam packed, and I am at the front, I need to move out of the way of those exiting the bus and then readjust my skinny ass to stand in a manner where the bus can move, and I will not fall.
This large man moves to the front of the bus for NO REASON, and then will not scoot in when people come by. So this old lady (caked on makeup, Jackie-O style sunglasses, the whole shebangabang) gets mad and asks him to move... So he sticks out his ASS really far, and then does a 90 degree turn... as if he was trying to show off his ass to everyone, and then turn so the back of the bus could see it.
WHAT?!?!?!
needless to say, he's stupid, and so is everyone else that was on that bus except for me. THAT'S RIGHT!!!
So I'm in graphic design class, and my teacher is talking about how she hates 'sneakers' - calling them the equivalent of sweatpants for feet. Not only is this a true and accurate statement about said shoes, but it's also a hilarious observation that I plan to utilize in my vocabulary as much as possible.
I don't know what to eat for lunch today - but I can probably guarantee that it will not be Starbucks after last weeks bout of craziness... INSANITY!!!
Speaking of Insanity, I need to speak with my parents this weekend about the impending mortgage that I'm trying to get... what a pain in the ass that is, but I need a place to live, no?
Anyway... I should probably get outta here - I am bored at work, so if you see this before 3ish, by all means... call me and lets have a pow-wow over the phone. |
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| Thursday, April 27, 2006 |
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So far, I have written 25 poems on this blog - I'll have between 2-5 more, but might not post them, since they'll be all iambic pentameter crap for the class and probably wont be as personal as a result. These ones I've done have been awesome, cause they're free-word style writings - I just write them as my brain thinks them up. Doesn't get much more honest than that, and I typically keep things to myself, so this has been cool.
I was glad to see some of you comment on them throughout the last 3 months, so that was pretty cool as well, and I thank you for it.
Megan - see the comments on your post from yesterday.
Everyone - I'm so busy, I can hardly think, but whatever it is that I AM doing, it's getting me good feedback from everyone, so I'm happy about that.
I'm really going to try to record drums this weekend. I have to rent the equipment and do it myself - and that's okay. It's only 3 songs that need drums, so this can't be that hard (says the fool who will spend DAYS trying to figure it out most likely).
I just want a break this summer, ya know? Anyway...
Talk to you all soon! |
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| Wednesday, April 26, 2006 |
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| mc chris will be performing in DeKalb on May 27. I got excited about this until I realized I'll still be in Ireland then. I also found out that he's from Libertyville, which has got to be the most hilarious thing ever. Mikey, if you don't go to this we're totally through. |
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| Saturday, April 22, 2006 |
| color |
I sit and look
Mike's sheets are colorful
the skyline of chicago glistens
the buildings
OH the buildings
HGTV
that dogwood tree STINKS!
sometimes the look of something is everything.
sometimes it's just what makes us complacent.
sometimes I cry in the middle of snoring while I sleep.
How do I know that, you ask?
ha!
i know everything.
and sometimes everything is nothing
and sometimes nothing equates to some colorful sheets
over there in Mike's bedroom. |
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| Friday, April 21, 2006 |
| follow |
To follow up on my last post - here's the security report that was sent to my manager about yesterdays happenings (edited only the names, so... ya know, I don't lose my job):
At approximately 1245 hours CC contacted Security regarding a sick employee on the 7th floor. Security reported to the 7th floor Men's Room and found a Mr. Michael Ganz vomiting. Mr. Ganz was attempting to contact a friend to pick him up and give him a ride home. Security also attempting to contact a friend of Mr. Ganz but was unsuccessful. Mr. Ganz reported only having some fruit from a local Starbucks earlier this day. Mr. Ganz finally decided to leave the site on his own in a cab. R/O assisted employee to an elevator and taxi. Time of departure was approximately 1305 hours. End of report.
Tell me that isn't hilarious! ;-) |
| posted by grey as mike @ 12:58 PM |
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No... not the 80's hair-rock band.
The majority of my day at work yesterday was spent leaning on the office bathroom's handicapped toilet, where I was thoroughly embarrassed by having over a dozen men from this place watch as I built up a nice cold sweat and filled said toilet with vomit and saliva. Delicious, eh?
After an hour and a half of that, the building security guard and a very nice co-worker named Howard helped to get me up and about - and by that I mean, out of the building and into a cab, where I vomited the entire ride home, and then slammed my head into a wall trying to get from the cab to my apartment. Passing out begun shortly after I vomited once again.
THEN - I had to go to school to get a paper THAT NIGHT! It was like... if I didn't, then I'd not be able to get the teachers notes until the final was due, and then I'd get a bad grade for turning it in late. Jenny and Megan to the rescue! They drove me to school, and for that - I owe you both dinner.
I had some Sierra Mist before going to bed, and then had some this morning as well. I haven't eaten anything since the ugliness yesterday, so I think I'll grab some crackers shortly and begin with that.
I can tell you this - Everything that came up was SOLELY the apple fritter I got from Starbucks. So... ya know... never eat one of those.
As for life in general - I suppose things are good - I am optimistic, so that is a good thing, and we'll see where things progress this weekend. Bob Nanna from the City On Film/Hey Mercedes/Braid is playing his last show in Chicago for the summer (if not the rest of the year) because he has already begun chemotherapy for some cancer he's got... I MUST go see this tonight, so... good times. Please join me if you can :-).
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afloat in a sea of disarray
walking about a boat
with a hole that's plugged
by my own good intentions
wanna bet how long those
keep me afloat?
Sometimes I have this mood
by which I get really happy
and then it all comes crashing
smashing, bashing, lashing
and i'm left with a hole in my boat
that I plug with anything I can pull out of me.
Once, I met this guy
it was magical and amazing
then it was done
and he was nothing more than
some dickhead walking down the street
why can't his boat have a hole?
holes - fuck holes
ya know what? fuck you
and fuck me
just fuck,
ya know?
cause every boat has a hole.
and sometimes holes can't be plugged.
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That was an ON-THE-FLY mike ganz original. I guess it sounds a bit more downtrodden than my mood at the moment, but... whatever. It is what it is. Unconcious stream of thought by which I have shared something about myself with you, my ones of readers.
Have a good friday kids (but not... GOOD Friday, cause that was last week and Jewsus was celebrated then). Later... |
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| Tuesday, April 18, 2006 |
| cunt |
What a weird word, no? Where did it come from? What does it do? Well... I think we ALL know what it DOES, but man... what a goddamn funny word that is to me.
I'm at work, have lots of work to do for minibar and advertising class tonight (I'm beginning to hate this class - a lot). We're storyboarding right now. I wish I didn't have to do it - I'm horrible at drawing unless I sit for days and days and days and draw, and I don't have that kind of time.
I simply do not understand why they are teaching us to do things in an old-school manner. Why the fuck can't we use the computer for this? It's a damn shame, I tell ya!
I feel artistic lately - Like I have more to offer this world now that I have a pretty keen design sense developing here. It's good times, seriously. I feel like I drive my teachers crazy, but it's really all for the better of my grade and experience. When I pay $16K/yr, I will get as much as I can possibly suck out of it.
It's funny how that last sentence can be used in so many ways to make me out to be a whore, no?
I had a wonderful Easter, where I went to my sisters house to play drums (and had an AWESOME session), then to my parents house for dinner. I talked with my mom about condo stuff, and then proceeded to eat 3 filets for dinner, along with veggies. Either I was really hungry, or this new workout regimen is doing me good. Can't complain either way.
Things are developing here, people. I have a lot on my plate, so there will be downsides, but I'm in an upside right now and I'm going to ride it out for what it's worth.
Oh, last night a raving derelict was on the bus talking about the war - He was a good 70, 75 years old, and talking about how he didn't have to read anything because he knew everything already, and then went into Hindu scripture, among other things. It was humorous enough to silently laugh at, but not humorous enough to not turn the ipod up really loud to drown it out.
Anyway, I supposed I should get outta here. Have a good day, churrens! |
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| Friday, April 14, 2006 |
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So what's the deal with all the newspaper articles about love lately? Finding it on the bus, finding it at the bar, finding it at the laundry room in your building...
Seriously, enough with the love - if I'm not getting any, then no one is, damnit!
I wish to see Scary Movie 4 this weekend. I have always loved spoof movies like it, and will try to garner a person or 2 to see it with me.
It's Good Friday - I'm not sure what that means, but it has something to do with Jesus rising from the dead and then disappearing 3 days later (Easter), right? Eh... I'm just not religious enough to really pay attention (or care, sorry - but more importantly, I'm not sorry).
Minibar stuff is going along as planned, but scholarships have halted... I don't have my SAR back yet, and the Dept. Head at school can't write a letter of recommendation by today, so... I'm going to have to look at a few from outside the school and work with those. I really hope I can work something out here, cause I need to get registered and get things done.
Condo stuff happens next week - I'm afraid of where that will take me.
Everything else is crazy, and I don't know what the deal is with anything. Ah well, no big deal.
But I do know this... I am bored, and bored sucks. A lot. I want to go home, but I'm not sure there's much else there to keep me occupied. There is cleaning and stuff which should get done. Laundry, too, so perhaps I'll make an afternoon of that, and have it all done for the weekend. Good times.
Anyway, I'm out for the day - Have a good weekend kids! |
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| Thursday, April 13, 2006 |
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So here I am
and there you are.
I feel like I've known you a long time
and I've never seen you
your friends seem cool
diverse and quirky with just the right mix of
common ground.
As you grow older, I sense your sense of disillusionment
and join you in said sense.
When you're lost on your home turf
I'm lost, too, and we are in sync at last.
But, you're just on paper
and I, the real deal, can only learn from your pages.
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I'm extremely busy right now, so not much to blog about. I'll run down the list:
1) financial aid - I'm broke, and can't get a student loan, so I'm applying for grants and scholarships and all kinds of fun crap. The problem is that they are all due tomorrow - how fun is THAT?!?!
2) I have to read 60 pages of Hamlet today, and then write a 1 page paper about it. This was in addition to the 5 page paper I wrote this morning about how August Wilson's plays transcend race instead of focusing on it specifically. I have 5 books, 3 of which I used as sources.
3) Minibar posters - I still have to make a hiring poster, but need to get approval on the posters for the windows. Tomorrow, I will be finalizing some "Indulge Sundays" ads, and then going to the school to print the posters.
4) Poetry and Music - I realize that I need to get the poetry book and music project done in less than 4 weeks now. Ummmm... yea, stressful! The above poem is about Blight, from Dybek's Coast of Chicago. I've written one about Wilson, Bukowski and now Dybek... I need to do one about Hamlet, and then a Trochaic poem, followed by an Iambic poem (yea, I'm just as lost on those as you are).
5) Condo stuff. I need to start looking in the next couple of weeks - I also need to get pre-approved - EEK! Not fun, but it has to get done... I'm tired of moving and shit.
So, as you can see, I am once again busy as all live F%$*! I'll post when I can, otherwise, just leave a comment and I can respond to those.
Later bitches! |
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| Tuesday, April 11, 2006 |
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So... I don't know why I'm about to blog about this, but... I just took a crap for the first time since Sunday morning.
Ain't that some shit? (badoom boom *ching*)
So I've found that I can print a poster as long as I want and up to 44" wide at school. Exciting! It could cost a pretty penny, but - I can just do the entire windows for the bar at one time - I think that's pretty cool. We'll see what the guys think about that...
I think I'm gonna go for clip-art and pictographic images - something intricate and organic with grape vines and such, with the logo at the bottom, Summer 2006 in the center, and a transparent logo just underneath it. Me likey idea, ya...
For other stuff and goings on, life is going as it will. Ideas flow and flow and flow. My mood is much better this week, although I have a lot to think about and address in addition to school and work duties.
I have a haircut today - It's been about 5 weeks since the last, so that will be nice. Things are generally looking up, but it's temporary at best... I have a LOT of work to get done and do before things calm down again. It's daunting even thinking about it.
here's a poem for the day:
There once was a girl
from nantucket
aww... fuck it
what is the punchline to that joke anyway?
is it really just the rhyme of
fuck it?
jokes... what a joke!
Hey, I heard this cool joke the other day...
it involved life and love
and your mom... weird huh?
it turns out she was from nantucket
and used the phrase fuck it
and then i killed her.
that joke is just NOT funny!
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that was a mike ganz original thought up ON THE FLY! Maybe that's why it's terrible, but hey... you get what you pay for, and since none of YOU are giving me royalties, well... there's your answer.
I wish I were drunk right now... |
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| Monday, April 10, 2006 |
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Grace us, please...
for we are BEGGING for
you.
Pose in every position possible, please...
we HAVE to know every side of
you.
I NEED to
see you
read you
stalk you
photograph you
scream for you
yearn for you.
without you...
well, it's just us normals.
So I raise this wine glass to you,
the beautiful people,
for gracing our eyes with lies
in the form of false gods
to which you will go
to hell for.
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| Sunday, April 09, 2006 |
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Oh the sunny disposition. Apparently I have friends that are having just as bad a time as I... Makes me feel kinda better, LOL... Terrible, huh? It's all good, though... I'm in better spirits today than I was yesterday, so that's a good thing.
I went out last night with Karl, that ol' wino him. Not really, but we did go out and it was nice to be out and social.
Point being - better mood today, but could change tomorrow. One never knows...
Anyway, I'm out. Night! |
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| Saturday, April 08, 2006 |
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I'm feeling bland today. I went to West Elm with my friend Tim and ran into an ex with their new beau. Or at least I think it was... I dunno, it was very uncomfortable, either way. What a difference a year makes, and yet everything comes crashing back - the feelings, the guilt, that weird stomach feeling. *sigh* tough times...
I'm over it, but it's always uncomfortable. It's becoming more uncomfortable the more of these ex's I seem to pile up. That concerns me. They all seem to be tied into all my groups of friends, too. I've learned a lot from these mistakes, so I think I'm finally done repeating them.
Still makes me sad, and a little lonely, too. Friends are busy, I'm busy, and dating just isn't working out for me. When it rains, it pours...
There has to be an easier way to occupy my free time OTHER than just filling it with more work. I'm too shy to just talk to strangers. I'm done with online meetings and junk. None of my current friends want to do volleyball this summer, and I'm too shy to just post that I want to join a team. I think I'm just doomed. I backed myself in this corner, and now I'll have to sit here with my dunce cap on, and sulk about it.
I'm watching these 2 idiot-bags on HGTV right now search for a houseboat in Seattle. Fuck them - I mean, how much money do you need to waste? Give me some fucking money NOW!
I need to stop watching HGTV. It's really just doing me no good. But NOTHING is on TV on the weekends. It really sucks. I remember growing up, being a complete loser, I'd watch prime time TV on Friday's and Saturday's, which included the Golden Girls and Empty Nest. Now, I'm lucky to catch reruns of anything. I shouldn't be WATCHING TV on the weekends, but I have no life, so... kinda makes it my only thing to do.
I bought some candles to take over the stale apartment smell in our apartment. I also love candles. Something so peaceful about them.
One thing I want to do this summer is go to Lincoln Park and go kayaking in that little lake just west of LSD. I also want to go to Lincoln Park Zoo. I've never been, so... why not? It'll be better than hangin around doing nothing.
In minibar news - I'm doing an entire window display, menu development, cards, logos, etc. Lots of work coming up, and it's cool. I'm really excited, and scared a little, too. Everything is kind of intimidating, because my work gets out there and judged. While it's not exactly that high profile, it's enough so that my neighborhood will get a whiff of my work, and if it's not good, then that could affect my career - and this early on, I don't have enough good work behind me to make up for one bad move yet.
Guess I'm in a pondering mood today - lots going through my head. Hopefully I'll get a couple drinks tonight and be social in some facet. Dunno, guess I should get to it, eh?
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| Friday, April 07, 2006 |
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Bob Nanna has cancer, and undergoes Chemotherapy for the rest of summer. No City on Film shows, no nothing. Kinda sucks :-( - he's a better man than I... While his condition is a rather non-serious version of cancer, it still sucks, and I'm not sure I'd be able to handle it.
Good luck Mr. Nanna - I'll be thinkin about ya, and probably seeing you at the next few shows that are here in Chicago.
So... That leads me to today's topic:
Hey Mercedes is awesome.
I simply love the overall concept of this group. Everything they did worked really well with the design elements and music elements, and their live shows worked as well. It's by no means stellar work or mind-blowing work, but their overall presentation really worked well for them. I think that's pretty cool. That's kind of what I want to go for.
I keep thinking of the scene right now, and what's popular vs. not popular. It seems like that cheesy emo-punk rock scene is losing steam (except the incipid Fall Out Boy, which even at the height of popularity of that scene STILL should not be popular). The whole 80's rock thing like Modest Mouse and Franz Ferdinand seems to be losing steam as well. Or maybe I'm losing steam in keeping up with it all.
The most I can do is make music that I think sounds cool and go from there. It is REALLY hard to coordinate all these things together. They sound good on my acoustic guitar, but when I try to add other instruments, they get a little muddled. I don't want an all acoustic album, so I practice these things each saturday and make new things that sound different and are a stretch for me, but only time will tell if it works. We shall see.
I have the house to myself this weekend. It's nice when that happens. I clean things up and can relax in peace without worry of interuption. Not sure if I'm going to do the drums this weekend or not. It would be nice, but... I don't know. I feel I could get just as much done here by working on the guitar stuff for once. Maybe I'll do that. Possibly some demo postings next week? No promises (as usual).
Someone was cute on the bus this morning. Not my type, typically, but cute. Rare on the bus these days. I'll have to stalk this one... ;-)
For some reason, I'm reminded of the Insane War Tomatos right now, and their album "I Rock, You Suck!" with tracks like "I Live In An Asshole," and the title track. I first came across this gem back when I was 14 at Heritage Fest in Downers Grove. They had a man in a giant fat suit playing the re-animated Elvis from the grave, and this "Elvis" was about 350 pounds, green and blue, his pants were falling down, and he couldn't really talk much... Just spewing things from his mouth and gurgling. Needless to say, they didn't have a stand the next year. Unfortunate, really.
Why am I reminded of this? Well... I don't know. But anything titled "I Live In An Asshole" is grade A material in my book. I wish I still had the copy.
Megan will know more than I ever could that they are no Punsapaya, but... who is? I mean... seriously...
I'm out... LATA! |
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| Thursday, April 06, 2006 |
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The person I was seeing over the last 2 months or so will not call me back. Just doesn't have time with the sickness to hang out and it's been 2 weeks since I've seen them last. I emailed after the last cancelled coffee date to see what the deal was, and now can't get a response.
Hint taken. Have a nice life - everyone involved.
The problem I have here is not that it didn't work out. I mean, that sucks cause I wanted it to work out, but sometimes it doesn't and that's life. My problem is the lack of communication and/or calling. Why throw out a friendship like that? Guess more friends aren't really needed these days...
My graphic design class is going splendidly. The teacher likes my recent work, and also likes my ideas for the minibar-winebar logo. Good times - I'll get some portfolio work out of this job yet!
I think, for the first time ever, that I bought a shirt that got BIGGER after I washed it. I feel like I'm wearing a f#$%in poncho right now. It wasn't this big when I tried it on... perhaps the dry cleaner stretched it out with the process of cleaning or something. Man - this is just NUTS! But I wear it, and wear it proud I do!
So I tried out 5 new bands - Neutral Milk Hotel, Mineral, Ugly Casanova, Something Corporate and Further Seems Forever. Of those 5, I kind of liked Mineral, but wouldn't get their stuff since it's like... late 90's emo music. Those in the know are aware that I have no aversion to emo music, but in general, I feel I have my fill - as Christie Front Drive and The Get Up Kids have a few mb's reserved on my iPod.
There's a guy in my Advertising class that hates everything popular. Now... at one point, I was just like this guy. Then I got over it... Now I just hate popular stuff that sucks, which is about 70-73.4% of it. My gay friends think I hate everything, but when all they like is dancing slutty whores that bounce around on stage exposing themselves... well, it's hard for me to keep an open mind ;-).
I bring this guy up because... well, I hate him. A lot. In fact, you could say that his existence on Earth was solely to bother me. 1) His nickname is 2-liter. I guess he drinks 3 or 4 2-liter bottles of soda per day. Not only does this make him an idiot, but it also makes him a FUCKING IDIOT! 2) He hates iPod's because he had one of the first mp3 players, and the iPod isn't original. This thinking equates to "Well, my Ford Model T is the best car cause it was the first..." Just because it wasn't first doesn't demerit its qualities. It's the same thinking of people that hate music or actors once they become popular. There's no reasoning behind it, other than ego and stupidity. 3) He argues EVERYTHING. There's no point of agreement, and the points he makes have nothing to do with the topic at hand. 3 times the other day, I had to respond to his rambling with "Okay, so... what does that have to do with what we were talking about?"
Point being... I hate him.
I guess I'll leave you on that note. Perhaps I'll muse later with some poetry... |
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and so it goes...
boredom.
i'm busy, but...
fuck it.
writing these things...
boring.
change is imminent...
and stale.
a blood rush to the head...
temporary.
temporary happiness...
fleeting.
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I got an A- on my ad from yesterday. I guess it wasn't as bad as I thought, although I knew it was good the whole time. Tonight is graphic design class, in which I will get time to work on minibar stuff and other class projects (it's a working class - sucks to go, but I still have to be there). I'm going home to workout, eat and then driving to class. I decided that once a week, I will drive just to make my life easier - waiting in the land of rape and murder that late at night doesn't put me at ease before bed.
So... Robot Chicken is no Aqua Teen - but sometimes it can be pretty funny... The one I saw last night was a rerun, but it had Jackie from "The 70's Show" (Mila Kunis?) voicing an Alien (from the movie Alien) and she was on the show "Blind Date" going out with a Predator (from the movie Predator). Seriously - it's just funny to see that. Hilarious.
I want Aqua Teen to be on all the time. GIVE ME WHAT I WANT NOW!!!!
I guess I have shit to do today - hopefully that will pass the time, for once. I guess I'll get started on it now. Have a good one churrens! |
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Here I am yet again at work, and bored. I'll go to work on some stuff shortly, but felt I could ramble here for a while in the meantime.
So last night I'm in class... We had to make a broadside of a song lyric. I did a Zwan song where the lyric is "Heartsongs are all that I am. I use the same words to say the same things." I think it was nice, and since it was easy enough to do, I just wrote the line in the shape of a heart, and the repeated it inside the heart in a diminishing scale (so it was like a heartsongs vortex, of sorts).
The critiques are going along, and this one line from a radiohead song that starts "You want me? Fucking well come and find me..." and the way it was written it looked like "You want me fucking?" So... we're talking about the fonts, and this one girl says she likes the font on the word "fucking," but then she says (inadvertently and not knowing she was saying this) "I just like... fucking."
Now, I don't laugh at first - I catch it, but keep to myself... then I turn around and see the girl behind me and her friend, and they burst out laughing, and then I can't stop laughing... I played it off like I had to put something in my bag, so as not to be rude and laugh at the piece.
I know... it's really not that funny, but I thought I would share anyway.
Tonight is advertising class. I hate advertising... Or maybe it's just this teacher. Perhaps her work is better than what she says is good in the class. Cause I work my ass off, and get B's, and people that don't do SHIT get A's... dumb.
As much as I'm not looking forward to moving this summer... I'm SO looking forward to moving this summer. Just thinking about all the new ways I'll be able to put my furniture together and put up all my artwork and stuff... It'll be nice, and I'll get over the pain of moving and finding a place once it's all said and done.
In case anyone was wondering, I think that option #1 for the business cards has won. It's not definite, but it appears to be the winner. Pretty soon, I will update my design site with new work and then not be ashamed of the things that are on it right now (not my greatest work up there now, but we all have to start someplace).
Bah. It's all just fucking dribble these days... BAH!!! |
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| Monday, April 03, 2006 |
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I'd say it's been about a year...
No...
10 months.
9 months since I listened to this album.
It's a nice album.
It reminds me of an akward time
when I had to borrow your hoodie for school
and stunk it up with photo chemicals.
Logic will break your heart...
what an apt album title for the events that unfolded after that.
The girl will scar you...
Not quite as apt a song line, but still poignant.
It's funny how the sound of this band
reminds me
of your smell
of that crooked smile
of your thick salt'n'pepper hair
of that one morning I woke up
and didn't have a jacket...
I listen through a few songs.
I remember why I liked them
then I remember why I liked you
it's a good memory, for once.
That hoodie is still in my closet.
I'm not sure that I ever washed it... |
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So I put together the cover for the poetry book today. Those that read this blog will have already read all the poems that will be going into it, but that's okay. It's only going to be about 40 pages, I would imagine. I still have a good 20 poems to write, and it's all for my class project.
Those in the know are aware of my careful planning, because I'm not sure I'll have the resources by May to have recorded the EP, printed the CD covers and had the CD's printed. the total cost on that is like $2000. Which, in my own terms, is like 50 million dollars. As a backup, I'm doing a poetry book, with some poems about the books we've read in the class, but mostly my own trials and tribulations.
I just got back from the "Eat & Drink" chinese food stand. It's like a hot-dog stand, but from Asia. We'll see if the food is any good.
Speaking of Asia - I went there this weekend. Actually it was Union, IL, but it may as well have been Asia! It was out there, man... TOTALLY out there. I met the guys at a steakhouse that had buffalo heads and cowboys and indians on the wall (I think there was a lot of guns and Buffalo Bill posters, too), and ordered nachos for dinner. Not only was I not hungry cause my dad stuffed me with (nasty) Aurelio's pizza, but the "small" appetizer I ordered was more food than the steaks everyone else got. I ate the nachos for lunch the next day, but I still have some left - it'll be a nice snack sometime soon.
I still have a cough from this sick thing from like 2 weeks ago. It's on its way out, but... still annoying.
Somebody give me some money right now, or I'm gonna cap this bitch! ... Sorry, R. Kelly moment.
I'm out. Later! |
| posted by grey as mike @ 12:01 PM |
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| Sunday, April 02, 2006 |
| careless |
the walls close in
and i just sit here
and no one cares
or at least they pretend
not to
i hate this
school
work
band
freelance
dating
none of it is working
none of it leads me anywhere
none of it makes me feel any
less lonely
today i imagined myself
getting into a 6 car
accident.
the greatest peace I'd
ever have
was the 3 seconds it took
to fly through the windshield
and feel that I don't have to worry
about no one worrying.
I don't have to care
about no one caring.
I don't have to think about
why I need to give excuses
and worry about my friends
giving up on me.
All i have to do is soar in the air
and focus on the job at hand
which is the death
of compassion and loving
inside me
and the birth of a
very lonely existence. |
| posted by grey as mike @ 2:20 PM |
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